Saturday, May 27, 2017

Laziness Vs Productivity: A Duality of Meaninglessness

by John Boodhansingh of Zero Mindfulness

In our modern day, laziness and productivity are effectively two sides of the same coin.

Laziness is avoidance of work and productivity is forced work, both of which are stamped into the body of meaninglessness.

Heads or Tails, the Value of the Coin Doesn’t Change

Suppose someone works 40, 60, or 80 hours per week. They get home each day and their teenage kid is playing videogames. “Don’t you do anything else? What’s wrong with you? You’re so damn lazy. Do something. Get a job. Be productive.”

Let’s question:
  1. Why is the kid lazy?
  2. What makes the kid any different from his parent?
In answer to the first question, the kid is “lazy” because he’s been taught since birth that people who don’t have the appearance of “productivity,” who prefer to read a book or play videogames, who don’t support the societal/cultural perception of needing to labor hard to “make value,” are inherently “less than.”

The kid is spending all his days hiding from the world because he feels meaninglessness. He has blinders on his perception as to what his options are in life. He doesn’t like the limited possibilities he’s been programmed to see, and he has no sense that the cool, enjoyable, meaningful things certain others do are also available to him. That he can achieve any such goal is utterly lost on him. Plus, for year’s now he’s been berated by the same parent who claims to love him and have his highest good in mind. Maybe laziness is just my nature, he thinks. I don’t exactly enjoy it, but, well, that’s the picture as far as my perception can see, so why not? And it’s not like I’m alone; there’re plenty of other people who are just like me.

As for the second question, the kid really isn’t different from the parent. The difference is in appearance only. The parent is working so hard not necessarily because of a solid work ethic but because she also got hit with the meaninglessness bug but chose to take it in the opposite direction.

“Productive” as her work may seem to the eye of the conditioned majority, it’s actually quite meaningless (beyond putting food on the table) because she’s doing the work while running faulty programming. Rather than making meaningful work or making her work meaningful, she’s looking to the work itself to give her life meaning. Said differently, she’s determining her personal value—the value of her life’s existence—and, by extension, the life value of others—on what some “authoritative,” elitistist schmucks have programmed into her as such.

We can thus see that regardless of which path is chosen, laziness and productivity are simply distorted mirror reflections of each other.

What Is “Productivity”?

In our modern, “civilized” world, productivity could often be described as legalized slave labor. It is based on the principle:

Work yourself to the bone to prove your worthiness to be alive—as define by an elite few and as valued in monetary and material accrual.

No, the average human being may not be 10 years old, wearing nothing but shorts while wielding machetes and cutting down cocoa nuts for many of the mega-corporations of the chocolate industry even though the companies had signed an agreement saying they’d stay ethical. (I didn’t make that up.) Nor is the average human being a grown adult who’s been voided of rights and has to work on a Southern US cotton plantation in the hot sun all day.

But much of the “developed” world is working ridiculous hours; doing jobs they’re not too keen on or flat-out hate; making money that barely allows ends to meet; providing to the world countless goods and services which provide pleasure with disregard to past, current, and ensuing pain; often indoors all day long while sitting in a small, padded cube and zoned in to a bright screen with little if any view to the outdoors.

This is legalized slave labor. People are working so hard, performing such unnatural habits and behaviors, never getting much of a chance to truly live their lives because they’re too busy trying to prove their worth. For a boss who’s never satisfied.

Productive, huh? For who? Surely not you or I.

"Life Is Lack" Conditioning

This whole “civilized slave labor” can be kept up under 3 conditions:

Condition 1: The savior mentality must remain intact.

This depends on a religion-based culture in which people are led to believe they are utterly worthless. The people mustn’t find out that they are each the heroes of their own respective journeys. The people mustn’t find out that through their own power, consciously and subconsciously, individually and collectively, they create the very experience of oppression to which they are prisoners.

This condition is why most of history’s change-makers have been harshly defamed, tortured, and/or killed—because they’re average human beings speaking the Truth.

Condition 2: The truth of life, of existence, of reality, has to be kept hidden from the masses.

If people don’t know who they truly are or why they are here, if they are led to believe that they’re being told everything, and if they are sufficiently distracted from the arising of actual truth, they will not ask the questions needed to bring the truth to light. Similarly, where the truth is pervasive, such as in scripture, the words must remain cryptic and “knowers of the law” must be placed before the people to provide “the truth” to them.

Condition 3: The appearance of scarcity or “life is lack” must be upheld and reinforced in every aspect of life.

As the foundation of it all, a financial system must be designed in such a way that those who have created it can create fiat money-appearing-real and then charge the masses the enormous debt supposedly incurred by printing unbacked, imaginary digits residing only in a computer. The system must be used as the base currency of all countries on the planet. The masses must be persuaded to believe that their inherent value is linked to the size of their financial and material assets. The higher the debt, the more unworthy of living they will feel and the greater the sense of responsibility the masses will feel toward their captors-perceived-to-be-saviors.

As it happens, all 3 of the above conditions we’re met a long, long time ago.

And their being so thoroughly woven into all aspects of our world culture is the reason we’re so “productive.”

Technology and Worth

How do we know this? How do we know these conditions aren’t silly conspiracy mumbo-jumbo? How do we know the law of the land is scarcity and not abundance?

Because we’re pumping out more goods and services than ever in recorded history and yet with every rise in “productivity” there’s a rise in scarcity—scarcity of money, scarcity of self-worth, scarcity of happiness, scarcity of resources, scarcity of every possible thing that would make life worth living for rather than toiling toward and suffering over endlessly.

In one powerful example, let’s consider technology. I’m sure we all know, though many of us wouldn’t like to admit, that we can do a lot better in the area of automation right now. As with so many other technological feats in their own ways, we went from room-sized computers to iPhones and Galaxies in a single decade. Yet we’re still working our lives away even though we’ve been told for ages of how automation will free humanity from excess work.

Further, “planned obsolesce” is the cardinal rule of the manufacturing industry. Why make something to last when you can make it to break it? So we’ve got people working loads of unnecessary hours to make items (appliances, for example) that will last 10 years rather than 50 at a cost 6 times more per unit than in years prior. We end up working ourselves to the bone to earn enough to buy a given item 5 times in 50 years at 6 times the initial price each time we buy it—not accounting for the obscene lie that is inflation.

The only ones benefiting are the elites.

And we all know this. We all know how fucked up it is. And we all know that it doesn’t have to be this way. Hell, planned obsolescence is taught to us in high school like we should be proud for being so damn wasteful, stupid, and enslaved.

…But this is what we collectively get externally when we collectively believe internally that our life worth is determined by financial and material lack or abundance. Why ever would we want or allow robots to end our excessive laboring when we ardently believe that we need “productivity” in order to prove our worthiness?

Who am I, if not a slave?

Who am I, if not this job?

Who am I, if not in poverty?

Who am I, if not what this world has taught me?

Who am I, to deserve for merely being alive?

What Productivity Really Is (If We’re Still Going To Use the “P”-Word)

True productivity is providing meaningful goods and services, as needed or as artistically inspired, while doing the least possible harm to other people, other life forms, and the environment.

True productivity is working when work is required and playing when play is required, while acknowledging that work and play can ideally be synonymized and that a positive balance is required between each for health and happiness.

True productivity is releasing destructive beliefs and fears, healing traumas, seeking out the truth no matter how uncomfortable that truth may be.

True productivity is realizing one’s life purpose, knowing who we truly are and why we are truly here, and then doing one’s best to live from that space as one’s own master.

Monday, May 15, 2017

"Being Spiritual" Is Nonsense

by John Boodhansingh of Zero Mindfulness

The further I row out into the seas of the spiritual awakening process, the more I see that...

“Being spiritual” is nonsense.

Leaving Religion Behind… Or Not

For eons religion has been telling us what it means to “be spiritual.” They've provided well-dressed, -behaved, and -educated clerics for us to learn from. [...I know. I'm laughing, too. Just entertain me for a moment...] They’ve given us commandments and dogma and rites and so on to help us align accordingly. Yet for all our effort and sincerity, and much to our dismay, never have we been able to fulfill what has been asked of us in order to truly “get it.”

More recently, average men and women have begun having spontaneous spiritual awakenings. Meaning: Folks like you and I are unexpectedly bestowed with the grace of seeing the reality of our true nature—that we are each an aspect of God, in form. Usually as the consequence of intense suffering but occurring effortlessly at the same time, we suddenly realize what religion has been pointing us toward since Day 1. And so, if we hadn’t already, most of us therefore drop religion and all the false ways required by religion to “be spiritual.”

Or do we?

On awakening, a great many of us are drawn into the New Age arena. We look around and see all sorts of “new toys” such as angel numbers, astrological alignments, high/low vibrations, and so on. We look at many of the spiritual teachers, and it’s easy to get the impression that being like one of them is what it must mean to “be spiritual.” They generally seem so kind and gentle and soft in language, and they eat so light and listen to kirtan, and so on.

This is what spirituality is. I’m home.

Do you see what’s happening, here?

Granted, yes, we kind of have to align with the New Age stuff if only because that’s the general category of life where the information we need is located (aside from within!). Plus, we’re intuitively guided to it.

Problem is, being that most of our awakenings have shattered only a portion of our egos, we end up creating new identities based on old programming. We physically leave religion behind, but then walk into the New Age arena with much of the “what it means to ‘be spiritual’” baggage still intact and lively as ever.

SSDD—Same shit, different day.

The Insight—What a Spiritual Awakening Is Really About

What is so vital to understand is that this process of awakening/ascension is not about "being spiritual."

It is about being a human in 100% integrity with one’s true nature.

This process is about releasing lifetimes of physical, mental, emotional, and energetic shit so we can integrate our full spiritual nature into our physical forms. We are already spiritual beings; we always have been. It’s just that our level of realization of this—which heretofore has been nil—is determined by the depth of muck we’re wading through—and it’s been deep!

So, sure, to heal we must engage in spiritual practices. But to act out any beliefs such as, I have to be a spiritual person, or, [This] is what it means to be spiritual, is an inherently flawed endeavor.

We must simply become real human beings, each living however we’re creatively and uniquely inspired by way of spiritual realization.

Further Clarity

A moment ago I’d made a comment about what seems to me an easily (mis)assumed, generalized perception of many New Age teachers. For whatever reasons, their public image is often “clean.” For example, during interviews and articles they're not apt to use foul language, they often seem more dressy than street clothes-ish, and so on.

I do acknowledge that some of this is appropriate. Even if a given teacher is prone to less-kosher language, it's usually unnecessary, inappropriate, and likely to do more harm than good to curse like a sailor while in satsang or teaching yoga or something. Nonetheless, I use the public-eye “cleanliness” portrayal for the reason that it seems, due to its pervasiveness, it can be and is falsely interpreted by many as a depiction of “what being spiritual looks like.”

This false-appearing-true “cleanliness” can also cause us to miss out on the countless awakened individuals who aren’t regularly, if ever, in the public eye. We miss out on those who are maybe crafting custom surfboards while wearing beach clothes all day in a low-scale shop in a small shore town… and maybe eating roast beef sandwiches for lunch while listening to Motorhead.

Two Examples

A little while back I came across a guy by the name of Victor Oddo on YouTube. For the two weeks to follow I binge watched many of his videos.

It’s no wonder why Victor gets 100+ subscribers per day. The guy is a huge breath of fresh air. Rarely have I come across another person who so “gets” the spiritual side of things yet remains so grounded, so real, so down to earth. And maybe Victor is so popular for that very reason: because he’ll share some great insights about the awakening process, perhaps comically interspersing it with the F-bomb, while wearing a black Nirvana shirt. If I recall correctly, it was in the comment section to one of his YouTube videos that he told someone he named his dog “Axl” after Axl Rose of Guns ‘N’ Roses.

I don’t know about you, but if I’d have heard all this shortly after awakening I’d have thought, Blasphemy! But now I just laugh. More power to him.

By all means, there may be plenty of other spiritual teachers who are similar, without necessarily appearing so. Whether it’s not important to their style of teaching, not appropriate to the medium through which they make themselves public, or whatever else, the average awakening you and I are less apt to find out, at least initially. And so, carrying old, unnoticed garbage along as we do, our egos stealthily draw for us an insidious, false picture of “what it means to be spiritual.”

Although more popular, Anthony Robbins is another great example. So many people, not just in the awakening community but in the world, are thoroughly embedded in the belief that in order to be spiritual you basically have to choose poverty. Yet Tony is wildly rich and clearly spiritually wide open.

Add to this his style of teaching/helping. If you’ve never seen it, I highly recommend the documentary, “I Am Not Your Guru,” on Netflix. For me energetically, I’d felt like I was being kicked in the face by integrity itself. Further, Tony uses foul language constantly and says that he does so in order to shock people into taking action. Counter-intuitive, even violent, as this may sound, his depth of presence, love, and compassion are able to shape it in such a way that, rather than a thousand people storming out in anger and rejection, a thousand people experience intense healing.

What Resonates With Me, Right Now?

By this point, some of you may be baffled by me talking about apparently “spiritual” people listening to Motorhead or using rampant foul language. “This doesn’t resonate with me at all.” This is the last topic I’d like to discuss.

We need to detach from our short-sighted definitions of right/wrong, good/bad, and high/low vibration. We'll serve ourselves far better focusing on, What resonates with me, right now?

Meaning, as spirit-integrating, physical human beings, we would each be wise to follow what is true to us as individuals in any given moment. It’s important to see that we create more harm (stress, fear, frustration, etc.) in our misaligned resistance to what is apparently “low vibration” and forced usage of what is apparently “high vibration” than if we’d just strive to be true to ourselves in any given moment.

In example, regardless that a being like Mooji may suggest vegetarianism, if our body has been clamoring for a cheesesteak for the last four months, then let’s give it what it wants already. If protein is required, for example, we can eat apples and lettuce all day long, but we’ll still go to sleep every night craving beef ‘n’ cheese. Yes, sure, we’d do well to opt for organic and all that jazz. No less...

Disregarding our bodies is disregarding our humanness—the very thing required to spiritually awaken!

Similarly, if we have a bad habit, for instance, and we haven’t yet resolved the base issue, in most cases it’s going to hurt us more to force ourselves to avoid it—it’s repression. We could effort to tame it if it’s particularly bad, but we also have to accept that it’s here now and will remain active to some degree until the underlying cause is healed. Yes, it’s “low vibration” to act it out, but what’s new? We simply didn’t have the label or the awareness before. Focusing inward, it will go in its own time, and we can learn to accept ourselves, the habit, and the process in the meantime. Fighting the “lower vibration” when it’s what still resonates with us only lowers our vibration further and makes any habit even harder to break.

We must remain conscious of individuality and the course of things as well. What I mean by this is that just because one person or one million say something like “smoking is low vibration,” doesn’t mean we should avoid it if it seems appropriate to us for some reason. If you’d picked up the habit as a teenager, maybe as you awaken and clear out repressed trauma you will quit (probably quite automatically)—but maybe not. In one example, Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj smoked and made no qualms about it. His comments (from the book, I Am That) were to the effect of: “I am just the witness. The body will do what it does.”

Alternately, you may be really into something while unawakened, during your initial stages of awakening you may find that that same thing feels “low” and misaligned, and later on find you enjoy it again. For me, one instance I saw this with regard to was Stephen King’s Dark Tower book series. I’d first read it when unawakened and fell madly in love with it. Shortly after awakening began and internal cleansing ramped up, I had to stop rereading the series during the second book because the foul language, violence, and drug usage utterly overwhelmed me. I actually gave the books to a friend soon after. Now, several years later, I just came across the movie trailer for the Dark Tower adaptation that comes out in August. Even so much as unexpectedly seeing the video suggestion on the YouTube homepage totally lit me up. I am really excited to see it. Is it “low vibration”? Call it whatever you want. I don’t care. As long as I feel as I do right now, I’m going to see it when it’s released.

Remember: This process is about unloading the junk so that we can become ourselves for the first time in forever. We cannot do this when we’re too busy altering old beliefs and creating new ones in order to align with yet another construct. Nor is this possible when we’re too busy making assumptions as to “what my integrity looks like” based on what is apparently going on externally.

Irrespective of what seems good/bad/right/wrong/higher/lower, we’re going to align with what resonates, consciously and subconsciously. And because this happens so naturally—assuming we let it—as we clear stuff out we’ll move intuitively, effortlessly, toward what is personally appropriate (and away from what is not) regardless of its supposed vibrational level.

Supreme Uniqueness

We’re so used to living uniformed, single-file lives. What awakening does is blast us open to the overwhelming diversity of life and the truth of one’s self. We come to find that the way any given soul expresses itself through any given body is mind-blowingly unique.

Let’s learn to honor this. After all, the fact that we’re awakening is a pretty clear sign that we’re meant to be “self-centered.”

So, will you join me in being human?

Friday, May 5, 2017

"Tying the Knot" ...Oh, It's a Knot Alright.

by John Boodhansingh of Zero Mindfulness

I don’t agree with most marriages.

Yes, I know. When someone is full of joy and they tell you they’re getting married or have been married for ninety-and-a-half years or whatever, you’re supposed to smile and be agreeable and all that happy horseshit.

Well, I refuse to play that role in most cases because it’s not true to me.

Here's why...

Love Is Blind (But Not for the Reasons You Think)

To first say, this has nothing to do with either partner as individuals themselves. They may seem the kindest people in the world, or they could be serial-killing crack dealers. In either case, my base feelings don't change.

Beyond all, this has to do with Love.

In most relationships—and this can be foreseen long before any wedding ceremony—so-called “love” is blind. Which isn’t commentary on the infatuation kind of blindness. (Though this will explain why infatuation, passion, etc. die out soon after most honeymoons.)

Love is blind because partners rarely want to get down to the nitty-gritty and truly work out their individual and paired struggles. They'd rather (unconsciously) blame and complain and victimize and be manly or needy and all sorts of other crap. They don’t want to talk to each other about what they’re really, truly feeling.

And why would they? How could they? With rare exception do people make themselves vulnerable with themselves, so how could they ever bring themselves to be vulnerable with another?

Adding insult to injury, this “love”… Are you ready for this? …This love often has little to do with loving one’s partner. In most marriages, the “love” a man has for a woman (or whatever the pairing) is the “love” he has for his parents.

What cho talkin’ ‘bout, Willis!?

Love in the Mirror

When you were a kid, your parents seemed to you as if Mother and Father God. You sought Unconditional Love, and you believed they had it. This caused you to accept, in your ignorant innocence, that whatever they said and did must be “what Love is.”

Sure, nowadays, you may look back and see that much if not all of what they’d done has nothing to do with Unconditional Love. But that’s beside the point, because the programming running your life right now, consciously and (vastly more) subconsciously, is still the exact programming imprinted in you through them all those many years ago.

When most folks find a partner, the majority of qualities he or she is attracted to about that person are actually “dust particles on a mirror,” so to speak. The man (or woman), rather than first seeking within, looks out into the external world—the “mirror”—for Unconditional Love. In the depths of his soul he knows what this Unconditional Love is and that it cannot be found in the realm of duality. However, he carries far too many false ideas—the “dust particles”—as to what this Love is to be able to attract to himself a woman who clearly exudes Unconditional Love from within herself. All he has to go on is the “love” he’d learned from mom and pop. Like a magnet, he thus attracts a woman who reflects him, who in some fashion matches his distortions. He will do this in relationship after relationship to whatever extent any parent-learned “dust particles” remain on the “mirror.”

What are these “dust particles”? They could be anything.
  • Maybe it means sex every Tuesday evening without fail.
  • Maybe it means having two kids, no more, no less.
  • Maybe it means going to church every Sunday with the significant other even though one abhors it.
  • Maybe it means one spouse beats the other.
  • Maybe it means the man is never wrong and the wife is too weak to stand up.
  • Maybe it means each partner reflects the other’s lack mentality.
  • Maybe it means believing that women are attracted to men who behave like nincompoops.
  • Maybe it means the marriage must stay together and the partners must continually put on the “forever happy” facade to the outside world even when the marriage brings nothing but misery.
The possibilities are endless.

If anything could be said to define these items in the most loosely specific way, it would boil down to these two questions:
  1. Is this in integrity with me?
  2. Am I causing harm, to self or other?
In example of the first question, suppose you’re a registered Democrat and believe that it aligns best with “who I am.” You may find it worth your while to question your “who I am” beliefs because beliefs create perception of truth, not truth itself. If you find your beliefs to be garbage, then you may no longer have any interest in the Democratic Party.

Consequently, you’d open yourself not only to real, self-truth, whatever that may be, but in line with question two, you would, say, realize that you’re not always right, and you'd cease belittling your partner for being a Republican. None of which have anything whatsoever to do with True Love but were accepted by you as such after seeing the very same “loving” battle played out by your mother and father.

Another Chunk of Garbage: Unknown Purpose

Another wonder is: How many people who are married have ever asked internally, deeply, why they want marriage? If I we’re a betting man, I’d be willing to bet that the majority of people never think thoroughly, if at all, about some of their deepest motivations.
  • Because it’s what religion says to do?
  • Because it’s familial/cultural/societal expectation?
  • Because I’m insecure with both my looks and my chances of finding a better date, so I better marry this smokin’ hot mamma while I’ve got a chance?
  • Because it works out better for tax purposes?
  • Because it’s just the right thing to do?
  • Because I’ve built years of my life around this person—my whole identity is based around us—and I’ll hold on at all costs?
  • Because that’s what’s going to bring the most approval?
  • Because in not marrying I can't handle the thought of my partner possibly leaving me?
  • Because I’ll be consumed for eternity in raging hellfire if I so much as lay next to the one I claim to love while unmarried?
  • Because “love” means having a huge wedding and going into debt for 15 years?
  • Because it’s my responsibility to love for a lifetime the partner my mother and father arranged for me?
  • Because children are desired and God forbid two partners have children outside of marriage even if they’d turn out to be the most amazing parents in all of creation?
  • Because, even though I’m wildly immature, fresh out of college, and don’t know shit for shat, I’m madly in love with this girl I'd met at a drunken frat party one night and see us being together forever?
Again, take your pick out of the multitude of possibilities. Marriage, like so many other hugely life-altering decisions we make in life, is typically stepped into and trod through in a blind, non-integral, and even harmful manner.

People would be wise to reevaluate their intentions, their purposes.

Final Thoughts

I’m not particularly keen on marriage itself, though I don’t lose sleep over the fact that it exists. And I would give my approval to any marriage that came to me intuitively as Truly Loving... Not that anyone who believes they're ready for marriage should necessarily give a shit about my (or anyone else's) approval or disapproval. You're only getting my opinion because you've asked for it by coming here.

What I would lose sleep over, assuming that I lose sleep over these kinds of things—I don’t—is when people marry not so much for love of partner as they firmly believe, but for love of their parents. Add to this the abundance of unquestioned false ideas surrounding marriage and the usual absence of vulnerability and a willingness to adequately resolve imbalances. All of which is then passed on to any children, if only inadvertently.

To be clear: I don’t mean to suggest in all this that in many of these relationships there is no love whatsoever. In certain aspects of most relationships I’d say there certainly is. It’s just that whatever is perceived to be love—i.e.: the main driving factors of attraction—is more often a mental-emotional distortion posing as love.

And finally... As far as I’m concerned, have any relationship you want, with any one you want, as long as it seems appropriate to you in any given moment. Only realize that an essential purpose of any relationship in this earthly experience of separation consciousness is as a means of noticing where the proverbial mirror needs dusting—and then acting accordingly in order to realize our own inherent wholeness.

See the dust, clean the mirror. Non-metaphorically, see the inner imbalances projected in the outer, learn the lessons. Marriage not required.

Then, anew, consider your draw toward the person you think you want to marry and be with forever and ever and ever.

Does he or she now raise the hair on the back of your neck? Or does he or she light your heart on fire?


Follow this link to: “Tying the Knot” – Part 2: Indifference and Conscious Evolution