Thursday, October 12, 2017

Kundalini Awakening: The True Sacrament of Confirmation

by John Boodhansingh of Zero Mindfulness



And when the day of Pentecost was fully come, they were all with one accord in one place. And suddenly there came a sound from heaven as of a rushing mighty wind, and it filled all the house where they were sitting. And there appeared unto them cloven tongues like as of fire, and it sat upon each of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues, as the Spirit gave them utterance.
--Acts 2:1-4

Confirmation As Per the Roman Catholic Church

According to the Catechism of the Catholic Church – Part 2 in line 1285 in Section 2, Chapter 1, Article 2:
Baptism, the Eucharist, and the sacrament of Confirmation together constitute the "sacraments of Christian initiation," whose unity must be safeguarded. It must be explained to the faithful that the reception of the sacrament of Confirmation is necessary for the completion of baptismal grace. For "by the sacrament of Confirmation, [the baptized] are more perfectly bound to the Church and are enriched with a special strength of the Holy Spirit. Hence they are, as true witnesses of Christ, more strictly obliged to spread and defend the faith by word and deed."
Further down on line 1303 under Segment III, “The Effects of Confirmation,” it goes on to say:
From this fact, Confirmation brings an increase and deepening of baptismal grace:
- it roots us more deeply in the divine filiation which makes us cry, "Abba! Father!";
- it unites us more firmly to Christ;
- it increases the gifts of the Holy Spirit in us;
- it renders our bond with the Church more perfect;
- it gives us a special strength of the Holy Spirit to spread and defend the faith by word and action as true witnesses of Christ, to confess the name of Christ boldly, and never to be ashamed of the Cross[.]

Catholic Confirmation: As I Recall My Own

When I was in 8th grade and 14 years old, we, as a class of students at a Catholic school, prepared for and then received the Sacrament of Confirmation.

Of preparation, I only recall two things: one was about memorizing the “8 Gifts of the Holy Spirit” and another few-sentence bit, and one was that the teacher would repeatedly yell at us that, You are not even confirmation candidates! when we’d make a mistake while reciting them. (I don’t know. Maybe God withholds love from those with a poor memory, especially under stress.)

Of the actual Confirmation service, well, let’s just say it was nothing spectacular. To start we walked up the center aisle of the church in order of height, girls on one side and boys on the other, and then basically, if I recall correctly, had a regular mass but with the incorporation of a segment where we’d lined up and had chrism put on our foreheads as the bishop said some ritualistic words.

We’d then gone on our way, supposedly “sealed” with the Holy Spirit.

Catholic Confirmation: The Effects, Personally and Generally Noted

One would think that being “sealed” with the Holy Spirit and being “fully initiated in Christ” would be some awesomely-felt bestowal of Grace; like a fire would be lit inside; like one would be suddenly ready to die in the name of Jesus. According to the Catechism, line 1303, I and others should have been crying: “Abba! Father!”

Absurd as it sounds to say it this way, the most “action” I, and it had appeared most if not all others, had felt was the bishop’s thumb physically slipping around as he put the chrism on my forehead. I’ve personally been in a Confirmation, I’ve been witness to at least three others, and I’ve been surrounded by Catholics my whole life, but I can’t say I’ve heard anyone—ever—joyfully, gratefully, happily, or whateverly aver anything like “Abba! Father!” (...Only, "Oh, my God!" when surprising things happen.)

Next, line 1303 tells us that Confirmation “unites us more firmly to Christ” and “increases the gifts of the Holy Spirit in us.” Again, one would think this would be perceivable in some way. Maybe one would suddenly realize deeper spiritual truths or treat self and other more kindly and lovingly. If such is true, it was certainly lost on me, and I’ve no doubt, on countless others.

Similar to this are the final two effects which note the “[rendering of] our bond with the Church [as] more perfect,” and “a special strength of the Holy Spirit to spread and defend the faith … as true witnesses of Christ, to confess the name of Christ boldly, and never to be ashamed of the Cross.”

From the time I can remember remembering, I have always rejected the Church. I’d always felt terribly ashamed of myself regarding any apparent faith in Jesus, about “preaching the Good Word,” about all of it. If it didn’t seem like it at times, the reasons are three-fold:
  1. Fear of reprisal,
  2. Despair and apathy, and/or
  3. Dumping it down other people’s throats (minus the lethality of the Crusaders) in attempt to prove to myself that it’s “right” and “true.”
Folks, there was nothing “perfect” prior to Confirmation, and there was certainly nothing rendered “more perfect” due to Confirmation. It seems to me the story is more or less the same for most others.

To follow, we’d received Confirmation at the end of grade school. If everyone from all the surrounding schools had been “confirmed in Christ” and had truly experienced and attained what is claimed, how does that justify my Catholic high school experience?

How does it justify the behavior of the kids who, like the flick of a light switch, suddenly went from a friend to not even looking at me, ever, because now they we’re too popular and cool and athletic? How does it justify the behavior of the kids who spent most weekends drinking underage and illegally smoking pot? How does it justify the behavior of the kids who had non-marital sexual relations? How does it justify the behavior of the kids who didn’t really care about Catholicism but simply went through the motions because that’s what they’d been taught to do, because they were attending a parent-paid Catholic school? How does it justify the behavior of the kids who picked on others, who committed acts of vandalism and violence?

Moving on then to college and the “real world,” with uncommon exception we’d see an intensification of the above and more (unless for deeper repression) without one deliberately doing the hard, inner work; for age just makes people more of who they’d been programmed to be as children.

Let's not forget the fair amount of the Church clergy itself, top of the hierarchy to the bottom, who are not only thoroughly "initiated in Christ" and the Church, but regularly engage in any and/or all acts of alcoholism, gluttony, pedophilia, and more commonly just a few decades ago, child-beating.

These are only some of the most prominent issues that come to mind, but in total they are extraordinarily prevalent and are wildly misaligned with the claimed effects of Confirmation.

Of the relatively fewer people who aren’t so messed up, it’s highly doubtful to me that the Sacrament of Confirmation did anything for them. If so, I’d argue it’s vastly more about their beliefs that it did something special than based on some amazing metaphysical transformation.

From Fiction To Fact

What I have come to find is that the play the Church has been putting on is just that—a play. It’s a false show designed to make people feel "connected" and "holy" (if not holier-than-thou). It's about appearances and keeping people in the dark while bonded to a man-made, profit-seeking organization.

Just like Baptism and First Holy Communion, children are indoctrinated very early, before they develop the skill of critical thinking. They’re “taken” while still under the control of their parents who had been forced into the same position and who will now willingly put their kids through the same deal to justify to themselves that “it’s the right thing to do” as not to have to face disapproval and their own potential errors and repressed hurts.

Unfortunately, these sacraments are not things any church has the divine right—much less the ability—to bestow, especially not to people at such an early age and with such negative intention and “false truth” to back them. (Average clergy probably don't realize the deception, but the higher up the pyramid, the more they most certainly do.)

As I will now get to, the truth of the “Holy Spirit in man” is known and has been known for eons. But Western man has rejected it because it doesn’t turn a profit or maintain dependency.

True “Confirmation in the Holy Spirit” comes from within, often unexpectedly, by way of Divine Grace. It is commonly triggered by an external experience, such as an effect of a mass meditation or with the touch or glance of a true spiritual master through what is called “Shaktipat.”

It is not handed out willy-nilly to everyone and their brother like some “complementary gift” for reaching a certain age or for following a certain set of dogma. It comes to whomever it may come, from any walk of life, in “Divine Timing” and with reasons no unawakened person can say. And when the experience arrives, you will very most likely know it.

It’s called a kundalini awakening.

Kundalini Awakening

Kundalini (a Sanskrit word), or "Divine Fire," is the Spirit of God in man that, for most people, resides dormant at the base of their spines. It is the primal, creative force of existence and the higher-dimensional catalyst of human evolution and divine-self-realization.

As far as I know, in the East, kundalini has never not been known. It’s always been highly respected: countless songs, books, chants, gods, and so on have been created in honor of it. Kundalini goes by many names and is of a female essence (making it no wonder why patriarchal Western man so thoroughly rejects it).

Kundalini begins as an upward moving energy, from the base of the spine to the crown of the head. It is not unusual for the awakening energy to cause a burning sensation (some have said it had initially felt to them like a freight train blazing up their spines) as well as a diverse array of other physical, psychological, and emotional effects. Psychic phenomena such as clairvoyance and clairaudience are also commonly experienced. The awakening is frequently accompanied by a feeling of great joy and gratitude, if not a heavenly bliss.

The result of this awakening is an expansion of conscious Self-awareness. Additionally, the cosmic unfoldment that begins with kundalini gradually opens the awakening one to "superpowers." This is the foundation of the Saints’ and others’ abilities to work “miracles.” Hence, Jesus’ statements:

  • “Verily, I say unto you: Those who believe in me will do the works that I am doing. And they shall do even greater works than these because I am going to my Father.” (John 14:12)
  • “…for truly I say unto you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say unto this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it shall move. Nothing will be impossible for you.” (Matthew 17:20)

Nearly without exception (some never leave the state of bliss), however, this light of heightened awareness brings to the now-awakened’s attention a mind-blowing level of darkness that had been residing within them, much previously unseen, much simply avoided, and must now be cleaned up: negative karma, repressed trauma, fear, false belief, and all the self- and other-harming behaviors, addictions, compulsions, and so on taken on in reaction to them.

Here is where one drops into what is commonly known as the “dark night of the soul.” It becomes necessary to feel one’s way through and purge whatever internal horrors arise in order to fully integrate the light opened to them with the awakening.

The consequence of this awakening and healing is nothing short of realizing one’s true, whole, spiritual nature.

I’m exceedingly doubtful that anyone who’s ever experienced the run-of-the-mill religious “Confirmation” has experienced a simultaneous kundalini awakening.

My Kundalini Experience

“For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.”
--Matthew 18:20
On the evening of 12/12/12, I took part in an online, global meditation. At the time given, all began the same guided mediation.

As the meditation went on, I felt like my body’s energy was gradually and subtly rising, like a gently vivid vibration in every cell of my body. Then about halfway through, I began smiling and laughing gently. Soon after, my face shaped itself in a way I’m not sure it ever has; it felt strange and somewhere between laughing and crying with joy.

There then came a part where I nearly “lost it.” My hands were sweating and felt like they were plugged into an electrical outlet. My breathing had also become so involuntarily voluminous that I had to mouth-breathe wide and deep to keep up. I’d also felt for a time as though my body had gone stiff, as if frozen in my seated position.

When the meditation ended, I laid on the floor on my back feeling unfathomably energized. What came to fill me was a joy like nothing I’d previously known, not even close. With every inhale I felt both the subtle and the powerful vibrations and shudders that we’re now consuming my body. With every exhale, I trembled intensely; my arms hopped, my legs jerked, and my abdomen and back tensed up. My hands still felt like there was lightning inside of them, and my teeth chattered like mad. I’d also felt unusually cold.

Following about 10 minutes of this, I began laughing hysterically with a "causeless" joy while continuing to shake uncontrollably. Laying on the floor for maybe 30 to 60 minutes, my body finally calmed. This was just the beginning.

The Darkness

In the immediate days after, I continued to feel deeply joyful and experienced periodic episodes of shaking and the like, although most of this eventually subsided. Within about four months I’d fallen into a dark night of the soul. The weight of inner darkness to initially arise was so phenomenally overwhelming and nearly unbearable: the strongest part feeling as though all the psycho-emotional torment of my prior 28 years was slammed into a 36-hour window. I didn’t handle it well and became incredibly sick.

One thing that I feel important to point out about this illness is that as diverse as the multitude of symptoms and specific issues have been over the course of the four and a half years since, they were never, as far as I’m aware, anything other than troubles I’d struggled with previously in my life—just wildly intensified. In other words, as I’d stated earlier as to kundalini burning out negative karma, such illness arose wholly as an in-my-face means of saying, "This darkness has been hiding within you, physically and metaphysically, and it needs to be healed—right now."

This dark night (which is always hard but doesn’t imply lengthy, raging sickness) is a critical step to the process of being “Confirmed in the Holy Spirit.” You see, the Holy Spirit is your Highest Self. The kundalini awakening and subsequent dark night(s) are thus a multi-level, multi-dimensional, massive purging of inner darkness and a realignment of one's human self to one’s Higher-Self, to God.

Living Confirmation

Perhaps not surprisingly, if we substitute “Christ” as a person for “Christ Consciousness” as an awakened energy of existence, if we dump out the notions of rendering a “more perfect” bond with the Church, the “Effects of Confirmation” via line 1303 in the Catholic Catechism suddenly feel very true and real.

Hopefully one day soon Western religion's Powers-That-Be will admit to giving their congregants a raw deal. And then give them the truth.

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