Monday, March 19, 2018

Blinded by Intellect

by John Boodhansingh of Zero Mindfulness

The Intellect: The Good

Intelligence is useful. Sometimes intelligence is very useful.

Had our intelligence not developed, we’d neither be able to fly cross-continent to see that borders don’t truly exist between countries nor be able take care of our business in porcelain devices that flush their human waste deposits two miles away for treatment.

As such, the intellect is a good thing. It’s a crucial and perfect aspect of creation.

The Intellect: The Bad

There is trouble, much trouble, however, in the way we’ve been taught to use our intellects.

As a collective, we’ve been fixated almost exclusively on perceiving and processing our experiences in a data-driven, rational, logical fashion.

Yet, this linear, yes-no, feelingless activity comprises only a small portion of full brain function and human capacity. And so regardless of what experiential inputs are received by a given mind, they are all sent through filters such as, Is this or is this not possible? and…

The Ego: The Ugly

Time out. We can’t proceed forward with the above thought without first having another vital piece of information.

Increasingly as we develop brain functionality and our ability to feel and intuit, we realize, even though we can’t point to our knowing empirically, that who we are and how life is is waaaay greater, more expansive, fluid, and whole than whatever the outside world tells us.

One thing we’d realize specifically is that we’re all connected. Another is that duality does not truly exist. Another is that we’re all here for each other’s highest spiritual good.

Why these realizations matter is because they confirm for us, through personal inner-knowing, who we truly are and how life truly is.

When we don’t have this inner awareness, when we’re shut off from it, we must necessarily look to the dualistic, external world to tell us who we supposedly are, how life supposedly is.

We come to depend heavily upon our intellects, and so we further suppress our capacity to feel and intuit, and we negate the power and abstract abilities of the right brain hemisphere.

Dramatically limited in our awareness of only the gross physicality of existence, we absorb experience as a set of concepts to be made one’s own in order to have an identity, in order to “be somebody important”…

A “somebody important” who is completely false, yet doesn’t realize it, and will often fight ardently to maintain this identity.

The Intellect: The Bad—Revisited, with Ego

I’d been saying that there is much trouble in the way we’ve been taught to use our intellects.

Again… We’ve been fixated almost exclusively on perceiving and processing our experiences in a data-driven, rational, logical fashion.

Yet, this linear, yes-no, feelingless activity comprises only a small portion of full brain function and human capacity. And so regardless of what experiential inputs are received by a given mind, they are all sent through filters such as, Is this or is this not possible? and, egoically, Do I want to know the truth about this?

The mind’s responses to these filters shape the output—that is, what the mind informs one’s conscious awareness—which appears as “reality.”

So, if someone of intellectual bent and ego-enamoring sees a laser shoot from the sky to the earth, for example, their intellect is going to immediately process the information through filters such as the two noted above. They might then think, There is no such technology, and if there were, I’m afraid to find out about it and don’t want to know about it.

The result would be an “unseeing” of what truly happened. Yes, the imprint of the experience would always remain, if only in seed form. But the ego and intellect would justify in any way it could that “truly” there had been no laser. A cover story would be fabricated, no matter how preposterous, to “prove” the laser must surely have a natural, reasonable explanation; It was just the way the sun flickered on my glasses as I turned my head.

Fear: The Ugliest

You may have noticed that interwoven in this mess of intellect and ego is fear.

For instance, the question posed above, Do I want to know the truth about this? is not a matter of whether or not such a thing is of interest but instead a cause for self-protection.

When only the physical and intellectual faculties are available, life is quite a scary thing because life is exactly as it appears, and it appears based on false beliefs and fears designed for survival, designed as though danger is nearly always imminent. These fears and false beliefs are egoic superfood, and the ego will do anything it can to sustain itself, even if this means destruction of its physical vehicle and/or other.

A Poorly Used Tool

Ultimately, the intellect is a tool of complete indifference—it’s a data processing mechanism.

But with glorification of this mechanism and the virtual renunciation of the felt, intuitive, and abstraction-based faculties, what is perceived when also filtered through ego is limiting, inaccurate, fear-driven, and saturated in false identity.

2 Examples

To further explain my point of intellect and ego overwhelming sensibility and feeling while perceiving life only superficially and selfishly, I offer 2 examples. The first is of modern physics, the second is of diet and health.

Modern physics
A few times in recent years I’ve seen some of the work and theories of the Thunderbolts Project, the main proponents of the Electric Universe (EU) theory.

Most notably, I’ve watched the following 3 videos (which, by the way, you need not be a science geek to appreciate):
  1. Symbols of an Alien Sky
  2. Symbols of an Alien Sky: The Electric Comet
  3. Symbols of an Alien Sky: The Lightning Scarred Planet, Mars
I’m no science fanatic, but I’m hardly scientifically illiterate. And my sense for the information provided in these videos is that, even if it’s not all true, there is quite a bit of data in varying formats (scientific experimentation, archeological, etc.) that provides quality evidence to support the EU’s cause.

As I was looking into the EU theory a little while back, I came across the website of a leading figure in conventional physics. And I was both amazed and saddened.

The guy had made a short blog post regarding the absurdity of the EU theory and basically the whole comment section served only to bash the theory and the people aligning with it. If I recall correctly, one of the guys from the Thunderbolts Project had commented a few times and was actually decent about it, but the majority of others hammered away in negativity, including the article’s author.

Yes, I acknowledge that the EU proponents are saying the theory answers everything about how the universe works, but sometimes can’t then say how. Okay, fine, then let’s not jump too quickly to saying, “We have the answer,” when, in fact, the answer is yet unknown.

Nevertheless, after seeing the evidence in the videos I’ve linked to above, my mind is blown, blown, and blown again that people who claim to be “intelligent,” “smart,” etc. can see scientific evidence that either proves or at least highly suggests alternate potentials, possibilities, or realities/truths, and still attack the Electric Universe theory and its proponents so viciously.

When the hell did modern physics finally know everything, anyway? I don’t recall seeing the memo regarding that particular moment.

So long, “scientific objectivity,” and hello, ego mania.

Diet and Health
If you’ve done regular internet research regarding diet, food, health, and physical healing, then you’re likely aware of the perpetual war as to The Single Best Diet for Every Man, Woman, and Child In the Universe. (It yet being uncertain whether this universe is electric or not…)

If you have any ability whatsoever to see this matter rationally—something it seems few within these diet circles do—then you can see how ridiculous the whole thing is; you can see how intensely dependent people are on their “optimal” diets as identifiers as to “who I am.”

So many of these folks, whether they’re in alignment with paleo, veganism, or otherwise, rationalize a lot of nonsense while mixing it with a lot of seeming truth—“seeming” being placed in italics because experience and science very often validate and discredit both sides simultaneously.

If you’re familiar with Paleo, you’re probably familiar with one of its leading proponents (who will go unnamed here). The guy has a massive audience, and yet his logic and the science he draws from can at times be so stupid.

I recall one instance where he’d used “scientific” research to back up his argument for low-carb dieting by stating that a research report said, more or less, that “plant fiber is unhealthy for the intestines due to all of its ‘ripping and tearing’ of intestinal tissue.”

“Ripping and tearing”!? For cryin’ loud! If eating a low-carb or ketogenic diet truly works for someone, great! But man has been consuming plant fibers abundantly since the day man came into existence. He needs to be vastly more worried about being hurt by war, vaccinations, negative karma, and his own idiocy and crisis-of-identity dinosaur flop than being injured by a fucking stalk of celery!

Yet herds of people buy into all this crap and idolize this guy. It’s incredible.

People are so disconnected from their own true Self-identities; so disconnected from their emotions, their intuition, their body sense. They’ve become hyper-fixated on intellectualization and therefore on a wildly bogus idea of “who I need to be in order to be okay because I’m not okay as is.”

End of Rant

There’s nothing inherently wrong with the intellect. And, really, there’s nothing inherently wrong with ego since ego ideally acts as a placeholder of soul individuality in human form.

Similarly, there’s nothing inherently wrong with leaning toward conventional physics or the Electric Universe theory, paleo or veganism, or whatever or whatever else. We’re all learning, and we will all take varying paths covering countless diverse topics to find out that sometimes we’re right, sometimes we’re wrong, sometimes we’re somewhere in between, and many times what is 100% true for one is not in any way, shape, or form true for another.

A great many people cannot see this, however. The intellect has become revered above all, and false identification runs amok… in a prison cell of its own limitation. The consequence is irrational thought, speech, and behavior—or insanity—packaged to look like wisdom, righteousness, and intelligence, that must necessarily function by design: service to self.

Is this really what we want?

Is this really what you want?

Monday, March 12, 2018

Defining Your Fears. Undefining You.

by John Boodhansingh of Zero Mindfulness

Have any fears you’d prefer not having?

All of them? Yeah. That’s my answer, too.

But to rid ourselves of them, we first have to see them for what they are.

Occasionally, yes, fears may pass away without us ever consciously knowing what they are. But for most, we do have to become aware of them; we do have to consciously see exactly what our fears are.

The point of this writing is to offer clarity regarding fears and then present a simple process which you can use to see your fears for what they are in order to heal.

Fear-Finding Example 1

A lot of people claim a lot of different fears, but they often see or speak of their fears at a superficial level only.

Without self-inquiry you might think, for example, I’m afraid of driving. But the truth is, you aren’t afraid specifically of driving.

What you are afraid of is driving…
  • …and being T-boned by a school bus.
  • …and getting a flat tire and having to push your car out of a busy intersection.
  • …and hitting black ice and skidding off the side of a bridge and into a river.
  • …because your older sister told you it’s a really scary thing.
  • …because your daughter was in an accident, and it could happen to you, too.
  • …because your father threatened to take your car away if you ever got a ticket.

Fear-Finding Example 2

Or let’s suppose that you think you fear not having money to purchase a much needed item or service. The truth is, you may have no fear whatsoever about not having the money.

More deeply, maybe you fear being charged a late fee. You already see yourself as lacking, so being penalized a financial fee on money you don't have is very concerning to you.

Deeper still, it could be that the late fee doesn’t even bother you. After all, in neither case do you have the money. If you’re not worried about one, why would you be worried about the other?

What might really cause fear in you is your perceived potential future of having to ask a family member to borrow money and being shamed, criticized, and gossiped about.

The Consequence, Not the Circumstance

You may not fear what you think you fear, since what you think you fear may well be appearance-based, such as fear of driving or climbing a ladder or moving cross-country.

Where true survival or obvious harm is not at stake, you do not actually fear any particular action, event, person, place, or thing at all. What you fear are what you see as potential consequences in regard to any given circumstance.

Internally speaking, what you fear is repressed, past-based programming, from experience or hear-say, recollected, usually unconsciously, in the present moment and projected into the immediate and/or distant future as, When/if such-and-such occurs, this awful thing could/will happen to me, and I could/will hurt terribly.

Expanding Possibilities

There are certainly times when the removal of fear is not the proverbial walk in the park. Sometimes fears are attached to present or past-life traumas and a healer or specific practice of some kind will be needed for resolution.

Also, some fears require that we lean into them in order to actively deny them their power. In example, if you believe you deserve a pay raise at work but have avoided asking for fear that your boss will reject you in some way, no matter how much inner-work you do, you may just have to ask in order to fully overcome the physical uneasiness of the fear.

Many fears, however, can fall away simply by our seeing of them. Why? Because they don’t even exist; because there’s nothing whatsoever attached to them.

As with the two “fear-finding” examples above, you might fear driving or not having money only because you don’t know the real cause. You’ve made up some false, overarching rationalization such as, “Driving is very dangerous,” and so you avoid driving all together.

If you can, at a minimum, reach a state of awareness in which you realize specifically why driving is apparently dangerous, it should dawn on you that, “A-ha! Driving in and of itself is not dangerous. What I perceive as dangerous is driving on bridges around curves at night in frigid conditions with a headlight out and then hitting black ice and skidding off into a river and freezing to death and drowning simultaneously.”

Wow! What a weight! And even if this particular fear requires greater work to heal than simple seeing, imagine all the other driving opportunities now opened to you that have no relation to the specific fear you actually have!

Write Is Might

That being said, here is a simple bit of process work you can do to reveal, and hopefully heal, specific fears.

What you’re going to do is self-inquire. (Of course!)

You will have to engage your mind for this, but only minimally.

For one thing, facing fears is the last thing the mind wants to do. “Hey, Mind, do you mind helping me to face your fears?” Yeah, right. Also, merely thinking of a self-inquiry question and mentally arriving at answers has a way of bypassing the very answers you seek. This is so because
  1. the ego will distract and avoid,
  2. the mind has to step aside to allow answers to arise from the subconscious, and
  3. thinking self-inquiry can be like trying to divide 27,364 by 54.213 in one’s head—it’s too much for the average mind to process unaided.
Therefore: Write it out.

This does not mean type up your self-inquiry on a computer or a smartphone. It means get paper and a writing utensil, sit comfortably where you won’t be disturbed, and ask the question(s) you need to ask.

Make a meditation out of it. Write a question, place a bullet point on the line beneath the question, and then maintain a quite mind with eyes closed while “listening” for answers. When an answer comes, write it down and create another bullet point. Stay quiet and see what else comes up. Repeat the question in your mind a few times if this feels useful.

After you fill in each bullet point, be sure to create another point right away; don’t wait until a new answer comes to create a point for it. Be proactive. You want to be telling your subconscious, Yes, I want to do this, I want the truth, I want to heal. Avoid sending messages such as, I’m not putting another dot because I think I’m done, or, I already have twenty answers, that’s more than enough.

When is enough? I don’t know. I’ve done written lists like this many, many times, and I’d say that the majority of times it just feels to me as appropriate to stop. I hesitate to call it an intuitive nudge, and I feel like maybe it’s just part of being honest with myself: I question and answer and don’t shortchange myself by saying I’m done if I don’t feel I’ve given myself adequate answerless time since the last answer given.

Inquire, and Keep Inquiring

There is often depth to whatever is being inquired of.

For instance, you may ask, “Why do I fear driving?” and one of the answers you get could be, “My father said he’d take away my car if I get a ticket.”

When deeper issues are unaddressed and overarching reasons are used, it’s normal to carry those issue throughout life and thus suffer a skewed perception and an inhibited free will.

If you don’t immediately see that you’re now 48 years old and your father hasn’t had the power to take your car away for 30 years and so you are free, then you need to address this. You would also need to ask questions such as, “Why do I fear my father’s threats?” and, “Why does my father make me feel powerless?”

You may have begun self-inquiry with driving, and by self-inquiring only of the driving issue you may resolve it. At the same time, if you’re doing the processing, you would help yourself tremendously to continue down the rabbit hole. Something like powerlessness around one’s father is not limited to a single incident. Such a theme will run rampant throughout your life experiences and must be destroyed at its root.

Only self-inquiry and self-awareness will reveal this, and only by understanding an issue in its totality will it fully pass.

Self-Inquiry Is Power

Defining your fears as described here is a most useful tool for self-discovery and healing.

To more or less reiterate: How any given fear will resolve once noticed is somewhat uncertain; some may fall away instantaneously and some may require more extensive processing. Yet of the latter, it’s still better to be aware of what exactly a fear is than to not know at all.

Be aware, too, that this kind of self-discovery and processing isn’t necessarily different from that provided by a trained professional. A little while back I had seen a psychologist for a 5-month period. While I needed the practitioners help to work through a certain issue, I’d already done around 10 years of this kind of self-help work. As such, I had a much greater self-awareness and ability to answer the psychologist’s questions—which were not unlike the very questions you’d be asking yourself in this process—and I’d been able to reach a resolution far quicker, I'm sure, than had I gone in blindly.

There is much healing and positive change the average person can bring about simply by regularly utilizing a process or practice such as that provided here.

Indeed, although I acknowledge that the use of self-inquiry probably doesn’t occur to many people or they may not even understand a need for it, it seems to me that many others don’t use self-inquiry (or only do so in a half-baked manner) because they inherently recognize its power—they fear change and so they just don’t ask at all.

Considering the immense force of fear and how drastically its release could potentially change one's life, that’s saying a lot.

That power is now in your hands.


If you found this post useful, be sure to learn: "How To Remove False Beliefs and Fears".

Monday, March 5, 2018

You're Smarter Than You Think

by John Boodhansingh of Zero Mindfulness

  • “I’m too dense.”
  • “I’m not smart enough.”
  • “My brain is slow.”
  • “I’m such an idiot/moron/dumbass/putz.”
  • “I didn’t go to college.”
  • “God didn’t spend much time on me.”
Do you ever find yourself making statements like the above? Yes? Keep reading.

Do you ever find yourself saying similar things but with regard to athletics, work, or any other aspect of life? Yes? Keep reading, and apply the general insights as necessary.

Have you replied, “no,” to the former questions but you’re life ain’t exactly rainbows and sunshine? Yes? Then read on, because for you, today might be a day of surprises.

Be aware for the sake of this writing that I use “smart” as a cover-all term that includes street smarts, intelligence, education level, etc.

By Appearances

Let’s start with a few forms through which we can see “low-smarts-worth” in action. This is not a comprehensive list, but it covers a lot of ground all the same.

Since this behavior is negatively-oriented, it must cause us discomfort and compel us into self-rejection and self-sabotage.

Furthermore, since we’re typically not willing to own the self-imposed discomfort that it is, we’re most likely blaming our apparent lack of ability on others and harming them in some way in consequence.

We may also avoid improving ourselves because improvement implies that we must first admit we are “less than.” Ironically, we will often vampire energy from others to prove our self-imposed “I’m not smart enough” victim role, yet we steer clear of any “out there”-/other-imposed reminders of “this is how dumb I am.”

Alternatively, in believing we’re “not good enough,” we can become overachievers in attempt to “prove” how “good enough” we are. This, of course, can never bring satisfaction and inevitably leads to self-exhaustion and probably harm of other as we force our way toward our goals.

The last item to mention is struggle. Most people who believe they aren’t smart enough (if only subconsciously) will, if they don’t become lazy and apathetic, pursue a path of unnecessary learning. This leads to struggle because undue hardship is a consequence of going in the wrong direction: Our progress should look more like someone climbing a ladder than repeatedly tripping up the steps only to fall back to the bottom before reaching the top.

What This Is Really About

So, why does this happen? Why do we behave like this?

Contrary to common and seemingly “true” imaginings, the mental core of this self-degradation issue is actually not about being “smart enough.” Instead, the problem is that we believe we aren’t “smart enough”; that we “should” be smarter and “there’s something wrong with me” because we’re not.

Yes, the world at large will tell us that we’re garbage if we don’t “know.” And, yes, sure, if we aren’t smart enough to avoid walking in front of moving vehicles or if we want to build a house but have no education as to how, then we’d do well to get learning. But usually our ideas about needing to be “smart enough” are bogus; they are ideas that only arise in an education-determines-worth-based society.

If we can clear out whatever it is that drives this sense of unworthiness, we would find that in many ways we already have the smarts we need, if only to reach our next stage in life—the next stage we must go to before any other.

When We Let Go, Things Change for the Better

When we release what is untrue within, we remove the very triggers that cause us to feel “less than.” Since these triggers were “in here,” the reflection of “out there” changes to greet us more kindly and allow for more preferable opportunities to arise without. Our perception of life changes, increasingly enabling us to handle life effortlessly as hardship and suffering are neutralized.

For instance, if we used to avoid reading books because they made us feel “stupid because I should already know,” internal clarity will allow us to joyfully read any book we feel drawn toward and want to learn more. Or if we we’d been born into a highly intellectual family and had come to believe that we’re not good enough unless we can place in the top three in scholarly competitions, internal clarity could allow us to:
  1. naturally perform at our peak because we’re not forcing ourselves,
  2. take part in the competitions for pleasure and without care for placement, or
  3. say, “This is all bullshit,” drop out of any intense intellectual endeavors, throw out all our awards, and truly not give a damn about any criticism our family flings at us as we go off to paint abstract murals for a living.
When truly on our personal life paths, difficulty may arise but we more or less readily find the means to overcome. Also, we greatly enjoy what we’re learning: it’s very satisfying and energizing.

These are just a few examples of possible change, but it’s all positive. So if you have any interest in being smart enough as is yet find you carry related blockages, why not see if you can work them out? What have you got to lose but that which isn't even true to you?

The Most Valuable Truths in Life Are Inner Truths

We’re not meant to know it all. We can’t. And to go a step further, even what we think we know is only temporarily “true,” at best.

Recently, I was around somewhere on the internet and saw a graphic with Neil DeGrasse Tyson and the quote: “The good thing about science is that it’s true whether or not you believe in it.” To which the first commenter said something like: “Unless that science is only a theory. Then you’re just fooling yourself.”

I don’t think my paraphrase is half as eloquent as the original, but it should suffice to get my point across. While it can be very practical to understand "how things work" "out there," "out there" is definitely not a dependable place to rest our identities and our “knowing.”

What is primary for us to know is who we are and why we are here by way of insight, not "outsight."

One straightforward, accessible-to-all way this can be interpreted is as meaning that we review our lives as well as observe them as they unfold, see what discomforts have come up in past or present as related to an apparent smarts inadequacy, and then make the effort to resolve them. Because the causes of these discomforts are the very things that drive our want to “know” countless things that often have little relevance to our soul needs and even have us rejecting ourselves because we don’t know but “should.”

We can also look at our personal histories. We might feel like rejects because we’d failed out of college. On the surface this may seem reasonable—how do we get anywhere in life without a degree? But looking deeper we’d find all sorts of ugly beliefs such as: “I’m worthless without a college degree,” and, “My family thinks I’m a loser now.”

Looking further we might realize that we’d only gone to college to appease our parents. With something like this, the self-rejection is ironic because now we reject ourselves for failing though we hadn’t even wanted to go in the first place. Why not pretend we didn’t even go and get on doing whatever we’d intended prior to the college debacle?

We can also majorly help ourselves by questioning our whole college experience in the sense of: What if my time in college hadn’t been so much about book learning as it had been meant for experiential learning? How had relationships played out? What about sports or other collegiate activities? Had anything untoward happened in regard to drug or alcohol abuse? Perhaps our college experience had been meant far less as a mechanism for academic growth as it had been a medium for the development of emotional intelligence, common sense, interpersonal smarts, etc.

As you might imagine, solidly answering such questions can have a huge positive impact. When we do so, we step out of false beliefs, assumptions, appearance, and so forth and get into the area of soul purpose.

What’s Mine Is Mine, and What’s Yours Is Yours.

Another thing people do is see themselves as “less than” based on a another belief that they should know differently; not necessarily more, as such, but differently.

For example, someone might think that because their partner had gone to college for biology, they should have gone for the same; that their partner is “better than” them; that their relationship will never really thrive because their primary knowledge base is different.

It could be asked, “Rather than being a Peter Poopypants about the situation, why haven’t such people then taken the effort to learn that which they feel inadequate with regard to?” While some useful inner-self-related information may be attained by asking this question, such an inquiry is still short-sighted due to the flawed logic that causes the question to arise in the first place.

There’s something we would do well to realize:
We are each living our lives as ourselves because these are the lives we are meant to live. To this moment, we’ve had the experiences we’ve had, we’ve learned what we’ve learned, because that is what is important for each of our respective life paths and lessons, whatever they may be.

For anyone to say that what they’ve learned is wrong or they should have learned this or that instead is flat-out false. Not to say any of those I-could’ve-should’ve-learned things couldn’t be of use to them, but so far they’ve obviously not been important enough for Life to have already provided them.

We each need only be as smart as we need to be to fulfill our own God-given life purpose.

Not our mother's purpose for us. Not some elitist schmuck's purpose for us. Not the purposes that religions, educators, and taxmen place on us. But the unique, God-given purpose etched into each of our souls that we’d been given before we arrived here and have been born onto this planet to fulfill.
Knowing one's self is enough. All else will follow suit.

Become You

There is the saying that, “One man’s trash is another man’s treasure.”

Here, you are both men, you are the present and the potential.

You are now the man who sees naught but trash. But should you look within, you would realize the man who sees treasure, the man who already has treasure, the man who you are right now who has been carrying the treasure with him all along.